Until Earth is pure…

I’m not exactly sure how to begin or write this post. I am here in the hospital again, but this time under graver circumstances.

I checked into the hospital Wednesday afternoon because I had not felt Isaac move for a couple days. It wasn’t long before a Doppler, a small ultrasound and then an more in-depth ultrasound and ultrasound tech confirmed that Isaac’s heart had indeed stopped.

I cannot tell you the grief that we have already experienced–even though we knew this day might possibly come (passing in my womb). There has been sorrow, anger, love and compassion. I just so desperately wanted to hold my sweet boy alive.

I am not ready to write all my emotions, but I hope I can. Not because I feel the need to explain myself, but because I feel that it will be healthy for me.

Aaron’s mom felt prompted to drive here on Saturday, so she’s been here. My mama flew in last night. We are very blessed to have their love and support.

I am being induced, but my body is taking its time and I have yet to really go into labor.

We are grateful for your love and prayers and support. I will update again when we are ready.

We do plan on having a funeral. I am not sure when that will be.

Thank you friends, we love you!